This is fun......

SILKY THOUGHT IT'S CRAZY I COULD CHAT FROM MY PHONE.....HERE I AM PUTTING UP A POST NOW!!! DUNNO Y IT'S ALL CAPS THO!!! BUT THIS HAS BEEN GOOD, AFTER 2 PERFECTLY LOUSY DAYS!!! SOME THOUGHTS - WHY IS THE WORLD CONCERNED WITH SHASHI THAROOR MAKING SOME MONEY ? WHY HAS DILBERT DISSAPPEARED?  EVERONE TOLD ME I GET CUTE DIMPLES, TODAY SOMEONE ACTUALLY SENT ME EVIDENCE!! WHY IS BEING HONEST ANYONE'S CONCERN - ITS NOT HURTING THEM. I LIVE BY THE RULES I SET, BUT SOMEHOW M UNABLE TO LIVE BY THE ALARMS I SET.JUST NOT ABLE TO CONFIGURE OFFICIAL EMAIL ON THE PHONE, DUNNO WAT TO MAKE OUT OF IT - OMEN/SIGN? GOOGLE BUZZ SUCKS,DNT LEAVE COMMENTS ON THAT. COMMENT ON THE BLOG,SO THAT NEW READERS KNOW THERE ARE SOME OLD READERS.BUT GOOGLE MAP ROCKS, ITS FUN TO LOOK AT URSELF AS A BLUE DOT MAKING UR WAY HOME...THANKS CLINTON, I GOT THIS PHONE ONLY ON UR RECO AGAINST SOME STIFF OPPOSITION. THATS ALL. TOOK ME 13 MINS TO TYPE THIS.......BUT I'LL IMPROVE..... 

Change…..

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another - Anatole France

Precisely my feelings on experiencing probably the first earth shattering change i have had in my life…….shifting from Nokia 3600 slide to Nokia E72….and a “qwerty” keyboard….I mean, i have seen changes that are more natural in life, but they have been expected, gradual and generally come with an explanation……but this was sudden, and more complicated than i thought…..for 2 days. i just couldn't figure out the best way to hold the phone while typing……and then came the pain of slow typing….looking for characters / editing issues, mistakes and irritation….worse, i was no longer good at what i used to be awesome at….typing sms in quick quick time….:( ……Now, it was like Sachin Tendulkar trying to bat left handed…..(jyaaada ho gaya, and he would that amazingly well too)……no. but you know, you get the point…..on one occasion, i seriously considered returning this phone and getting the old one back…..but then i thought “Practise!” and i am getting better…..so, now its both hands, both thumbs  and life is getting back to normal……

Someone had said – Change is the only constant, or something to that effect….and now i know (always knew, but now i have thought about and am documenting my thought here) that adapting to that change is one of my talents (the plural of talent is an indication of hope, that i may uncover some other talent as well :)) …a couple of years back, i had told that to Jerry Rao (Google him guys) without much conviction…. even then i believed that being able to face up to change , which may come up to you in the form of a challenge or failure, and trying to set out what needs to be done next has helped me survive….and another thing i have learned is, once you have adjusted to the changed status (which takes some effort, agreed with the quote above) , you don't really feel any effects of it, as in, life aligns itself with the changed status and moves on…..this is true not just for changes in work life, love life, parents, society but also important things like a new phone……and then you are most likely to agree with this….

Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed - Irene Peter

None of the above is rocket science, but i have seen a lot of distinguished people say similar things, so i thought i might as well chip in…..that’s all theory, me and my phone are illustrations…..there are some other illustrations too, lets keep them for some other day….

Wash my hands of it….

I don't like my hands wet or dirty, greasy, oily. Almost compulsively, i have to go and wipe them clean as soon as possible. Today, i did the ashtami pooja as dad has gone to Bangalore. As i was preparing for it, i must have washed / cleaned my hands at least 7 times in about 15 minutes. When the pooja started, my hands were full of all ghee, havan samagri, flower petals, water, nariyal pani, camphor powder and God only knows what not. I cannot get up from a pooja and just cleaning with the dry cloth was not helping….most uneasy 30 mins spent in recent times……

Recently read this - In the movie Trishul (1978), Yash Chopra and Salim – Javed had put in a Shakespearean touch. Sanjeev Kumar’s character was often shown washing his hands – implying he trying to wash of the guilt of having betrayed his love for the riches he got for marrying another woman.

I wonder now…

Hey, long time…..

I had last met him in March 1998, during my SSC exams. I cant say we were friends. I know nothing about him ,apart from his name and the fact that he sat 2 desks away from me during exams. He had his circle of friends, i had mine. I remember him as bit brash kind -  “Kon gadge baba???” he had asked that to our class teacher. I still shiver as i think of her. Her response was typical. “Pratham to saral ubha raha aani kaana khaali khaa…..” :)

Couple of days back, i heard someone call out my name as i was getting out of the ric. Turn back to see a smiling, fair, half bald guy walking rapidly towards me.

“Pehchaana kya??”

“ Rohit Takarwankar??”

“ Abe tune to pehchaaan liya!!! Bahut time hogaya bh#^@*^$ !!!!!!”

“Haan yaaar, 12 saal ho gaye hain…”

And for the next 1 minute, all we did was laugh. We would have looked like lunatics to any third person.I dont know why he was – i did because the above incident came to my mind, bringing along a flood of memories – school, cricket, Damle mam, Maa, friends, shorts, scandal, failed in algebra….soon we went our ways….he was out of touch with most school guys….and he says he is not on orkut!!! i dont think i’ll ever follow up with him, nor will he.  But the day i met him was definitely one of the best days i have had in recent times….

And it set me thinking, how would i react if i were to run into someone i was close to after a gap?

After all, if i am not in touch with someone i was once close to, there must have been a reason, The memories are not likely to be the best ones, infact the first thing that would come to your mind will be the reason why you stayed away all these years. Can be circumstantial. Will that be forgotten? Will i be civil to the person – “Hello, how have you been?”. I guess the best would be to see how the other person reacts and then decide – but what if they decide to do the same?

And will the time gap have any effect – people mature, grow and the same situation/decision that looked right at that time looks silly now.

And, then, lets say you resume the relation. Do you pickup where you left off (as in, not the unsavory incident but more like the comfort level you had and so on….). I think its best to keep things simple, formal……

Hmmm, there are atleast 3 people i can think of whom i’d like to run into……what would i do…..AS – i would probably be cordial, AR – Talk, interact but rude, snide, intentionally hurtful comments (expecting the person to guess this though and steer clear of my path!!) and the third person would probably be whacked. Again.

Ok, decided. Though i know from experience now, what actually happens in such social situations is always different from whats planned on paper or what you have advised other to do…….

Last night, i was in a hospital as an year old kid had a small accident. Small in the sense, it was an injured small finger.Just as I reached the hospital, the doctor was explaining all possible scenarios – including partial amputation. Speechless for a couple of moments, it was unnerving to be in the room, look at the kid…..i could have left for home, but did not, instead offering to help in any way i can. At about 2, i went to a colleague’s house nearby to sleep – but could not sleep till i got the news that the surgical processes went off well and the finger has been saved.

Why i was so anxious is something i cannot get. I’d never met the kid before, i cannot claim to be the best of friends with the kid’s parents, and honestly would not have cared for someone else’s problem. Or so, i thought.

Maybe, i am just more human than i think i am……