Regret...

Generally i am not the type to bother with what happens after any deed is done.....i mean, i did the best of what i could do in the particular situation & then forget about it....thats how i have lived....in the present.....
But this particular incident, almost 6 years back, keeps coming back to my mind......just a day after we had moved to Airoli....now we had a doctor as neighbour then & i had not been introduced to them....mom knew them well....so it was dinner time and i was hungry & had just got my food when the door bell rang.....mom was in kitchen....i opened the door to see a young sardar & his mom at the door....looking very tense...at the same time dad started asking " kaun hai? kaun hai?" as if he would jump up & fight if it were a robber....the guy asked for the Dr., i told him he stays next door....they said its locked....i said then he must have gone to the clinic.... i said i do not know where it is....they looked at me for a few seconds, maybe expecting some help, & i gaped at them like an idiot....& they turned away and left....all this must have taken some 30 secs....
Now mom was also asking "kaun hai?? kaun hai??"....so i went & told her ......& she told me , arey the Dr's card is near the phone, you should have given it...go see if they are still around....i ran down...but they were gone....

Well, that was 6 years back.....but the 2 faces often haunt me...whats worse is not knowing what happened next...they never went to this doctor....did my stupidity (or selfishness....i was hungry) result in someone not getting medicall attention in time...or was it too late.....i'll never know....