Today,I am happy.
Feel a lot lighter (which is quite the opposite of what i should have felt).Finally i have done what I should have done quite some time back.Cant really place what it was that prevented me from doing it. But doesnt matter, better late than never.
I do not dread the reaction. Nor the questions people may have. Its my life and i take steps based on my judgement (ofcourse mamma is an influencer!!). But the decision is mine.
Read in the morning that i need to do something about my love life. My love life?? Whats love got to do with me? Its always been desire that has been the driver. And so it was now. The desire to break free.....
From a situation dictated by someone else, on a stupidly constructed premise.....
From a self imposed ban on doing what you want to do just so that others are not hurt, offended or affected at any level....
From the belief that you can never be in control of the situation.....you can be. More importantly, you can make sure some else doesnt control your life too much.
So, all this in mind, I choose to have Pizza for lunch.
The love of my life, as far as food goes (well, along with Pav Bhaji) It had been ages since i had it. Felt happiest I had felt in recent past - since the time we parted ways. Why? Cos a person (and mamma) believed Pizza was the reason we were ill in August. While that was disproved, I thought it better to listen to elders and avoid for some time. But had enough. I'll control what i want to do. A pizza once in a while doesnt hurt.:)
and it leaves you very happy happy! So, when are we having another one?